I know I'm not alone. I don't see too many BLMs out there discussing their anti-depressants, but I know you're out there. I'll be honest and up front. I needed them. I thought I was strong enough to get through without them and then a month after our loss, I couldn't function anymore. I was no longer able to turn off that switch when I needed to, and that included at work. I knew then I needed to do something.
My family doctor put me on zoloft...temporarily. We decided we'd give it a 6 month trial. After my nephew was born, I felt confident enough to start coming off the drug. Over the last month I have slowly but surely tapered my dosage until this weekend when I officially had none left to take. Saturday was great. Sunday I had a bad day, but it had nothing to do with the zoloft. lol Today, I can barely hold my head up and I can't concentrate on anything. I thought maybe my blood pressure had dropped. My doc told me anti-depressants have a tendancy to raise your bp. So, I thought that must be it. I checked it here in the office. My supervisor has a bp cuff on her desk. It wasn't my blood pressure. Another co-worker suggested it might be withdrawal symptoms. She was aware I was being weaned off the zoloft.
Of course I had to google it. Sure enough, it sounds like withdrawal. UGH. I've probably got another week or two of this. Even though it's not too terrible, I feel like I have a new understanding of some of my favorite reality shows (e.g. Dr. Drew, Sober House, Intervention....) No wonder these people get so mean! (I shouldn't joke about that. I apologize.)
Anyway, anyone else experience this after your loss? Just curious.